The other night, Pat and I sat down and talked about our plans for the future. He fully intends on being in Richmond for the next couple of years. I told him that we should explore the idea of maybe moving somewhere else…I don’t know why. It’s not like I don’t love it here, I’ve just been bitten by a wanderlust bug and I want to start exploring what else is out there. 

I am trying to apply for a head cashier position at work (which essentially means I’ll be handling the tills, doing returns/exchanges, bringing change, handling customer questions/concerns/complaints, collecting coupons etc.) It is a lot of responsibility but it would look good for future employers to see that I have managerial skills. Plus, it’ll be at Barnes and Noble. I’ll get a pay raise so I could leave Target. HOWEVER, I think the Store Manager isn’t too keen on giving me the position and I don’t know how to fix that…

Patrick asked me why I haven’t really been looking for anything in my field and I didn’t have a honest answer for him. I had always been on the fence with my major but now that I have the degree, I don’t want to put those last two years of college to waste. But at the same time, I always find myself getting excited about jobs out of my field. I still do want to work in non profit and have been looking at places in RVA that could possibly offer entry level positions…but I haven’t been looking for marketing/advertising/pr related positions…

I don’t know. It’s been 2 1/2 months since I graduated and I’m still pretty content on how things are. I’m making enough money to support myself and Babykitty. I’m paying my bills on time. I’m designing business cards for my cousin and her husband (!) so at least I’m doing something ad related. I’ve gotten really into redecorating our apartment (new hobby!). I’ve finally been able to fix my car. I’m finally able to set aside a set amount of money each week to put into my savings. I feel like a new person in some respects. 

The expectation of getting  an “adult job” weighs over my head so much because I have people telling me always that I need to get one. I see my peers in better paying jobs (in their fields) and I’m genuinely excited for them. I still need to work some things out. I still feel a seed of embarrassment when I tell people that I work at Starbucks (inside of a Target) but I know I won’t be there forever. I just wish they would give me space and let me figure out my life on my own (And when I say people, it is mostly my family).

I went into Advertising because I wanted to have the skills to work at a record label promoting bands. Somewhere I lost sight of that. Now, I just want to work somewhere that stands behind a good cause. Once I find out what I’m willing to fight for, then things will fall into place.